alive?

Still waters all around me

No wind, no sound

The air smells foul

My slow breathing is a reminder

That I'm still alive

Tender Kisses

- Secretive Serenades -

- Secretive Serenades -

It only takes a whisper to my ears
To feel these emotional changes in me
I listened to those words, spoken like thunder
Yet gracefully uttered in silent whispers
I looked away to conceal my feelings
You watched me smile in the shadows
With closed eyes, you came closer….
With open arms I embraced…
In the moment of silence, your lips parted
Again you spoke to me in such soft voices
You stopped time with the words you said
You sedated me with your secretive serenades

- You -

- You -


You proved to me how beautiful love can be
It can be weird at times that I'm actually believing it
I can taste the beauty on my lips
and the sweetness of it in my mouth
This experience just seems so surreal
Like a dream that continues to be true

Who would have known that you're the one
That my heart have been searching for
You filled the void , replaced the emptiness
Brought me joy and endless serenity
Mended my broken hollow heart
Filled it with such honest passion

I believe in what I can only see
I trust in what my instinct tells me
It's telling me not to let you go
Not to let you fade away from my inside
I didn't need to know what it tells me
For I already felt you growing patiently

Little by little , day by day
A bigger piece of you stays in me
I don't need you to prove
I can see your acts of affections
It drowns me , yet it gives me life
It is you that kept my love alive..

If You Need To Know...

If You Need To Know...

Maybe it's your angry pursed lips...
Or your sharp squinty stare...
It could be the tender touch of your finger tips...
Or the calming sweet smell of your hair...
Perhaps it's the endless little conversations...
Or the millions of simple jokes we shared...

Maybe it's how you always decline to say no...
Or the shy expression when it's a definite yes...
It could be the intrinsic feeling you sometimes show...
Or the unanswered questions that you make me guess...
Perhaps it's the chance you gave for us to grow...
Or your willingness to take this unexplored test...

- everything -

everything

hunted down by a feeling
mistreated by trust
it died when betrayal came
everything else just faded away

there you are again

in my room , on my bed

tired , and sleeping

I need you to feed this addiction of mine

The little kisses , the slightest touch
The innocent glances , the warm whispers
The undeniable beauty , the graceful sways
Feeds the hunger the addiction of perfection

The softness of your lips , the twinkle from your eyes
The smoothness of you skin ,

You proved to me how beautiful love can be
It can be weird at times that I'm actually believing it
I can taste the beauty on my lips
and the sweetness of it in my mouth
This experience just seems so surreal
Like a dream that continues to be true

Who would have known that you're the one
That my heart have been searching for
You filled the void , replaced the emptiness
Brought me joy and endless serenity
Mended my broken hollow heart
Filled it with such honest passion

I believe in what I can only see
I trust in what my instinct tells me
It's telling me not to let you go
Not to let you fade away from my inside
I didn't need to know what it tells me
For I already feel you growing patiently

Little by little , day by day
A bigger piece of you stays in me
I don't need you to prove
I can see your acts of affections
It drowns me , yet it gives me life

- silent tide -

- silent tide -

again the tide changes

without brewing storms

or crashing waves

calmly it shifted

i was building our sand castle

gazing at the horizon

i was lost at my own dream

when the silent tide came

it slowly rose till i drown in it

in this sea of madness and confusion

- even the heavens sleeps -

- even the heavens sleeps -

eyes won't shut

mind won't calm

the smoke lingers

within these walls

the heart slows

thoughts grinding

a million sharpen nails

against my own will

another burning stick

a few minutes to kill

i can hear the still night

guiding me to my slumber

everything is so vivid

the hurting and the disbelief

those sweet sounding lies

memories that just won't die

hurtful tainted innocent thoughts

flawless skin embraces you

the natural brown tan

the ever flowing hair

curled up curves

slender fingers

angelic eyes

pure heart

hurtful tainted innocent thoughts ...

- ...... -

- ...... -

How can you be colder than winter?

To be able to strike me so hard

With hollow words and touch?

How can you be sharper than blades?

To be able to cut me so deep

Without me knowing it?

Why am I breathing in these air?

That chokes and poisons the body

And subtlely calling on death?

You weakened my soul and mind

Breached the fort of trust

Burnt the very heart that used to love..........

- The Act -

The Act

The smiles are an act

The kisses are an act

The touches are an act

The words are an act

You are a an act

- The Lost Feeling -

- The Lost Feeling -

I've lost the need to feel

As it's just another burden

To love , to care , to appreciate

Causing the calm ocean to burn

Freezes the flame I had in me

The source of smiles and dreams

Blacken thoughts and careless acts

Words don't explain what it means

static

The grinding noise inside

Static 

I loathe the thoughts I enjoy
Seeing you bleed from within
Such hideous thoughts taunts me
Scars the beauty of my calm mind

- Repetitions -

Thoughts linger
Emotions lurk
Feelings change
Memories hurt
Faith grows
Hope dies
Love blooms
Heart breaks

The smell of the tobacco
still lingers in my room
The citrus flavour scent
is what she left behind
The gloss on my neck
reminds me of the intensity
The scratches on my back
made it seems more real

You stole the night I can't recall
You pleased my needs within these walls
You looked at me and pierced right through
Broke my confidence and left it shattered
I felt you flowing deep within me
Brought me to a plane I couldn't explain

*baby.. if you're reading this , it's a 'vampire' fantasy thinggy.. ahahha.. i know it's lame.. ahaha..

...

My mind is encased in an envelope of fear
Which suffocate myself in this dark abyss
I am still whimpering like a lost child in need
But already feeling tired of walking aimlessly in circles
I looked around for a sparkle or a shine
Begging the heavens for a dollar or a dime
I extended my arms and closed my eyes
Accepted my fate without even knowing
That moment came and I saw all my blissful hope end
You came as a curse not as a godsend